Reading week.

So this week was reading week. I did absolutely nothing with regards to school, which is sad because I had all these plans...

However I am also trying to work on paying off some foolish debt I have accumulated over the past while. I got use to the big bucks working as an R.P.N (L.P.N depending on where you're reading this from), and kept living the lifestyle even after I left my job.

Earlier this year I started doing Personal Support Work at a local home care agency. Because I want to try and pay off a LARGE chunk of my debt before the summer hits so I can look forward to a trip and possibly begin saving up, I've had to work every weekend. Luckily I work nights a lot, which helps me do my homework as they are simply respite care visits and so I get a whole 8 hours to myself pretty well uninterrupted. So this reading week I worked two extra night shifts, as well as the weekend and tonight and tomorrow I also work night shifts. I plan to do some serious home work on these shifts. I promise to myself I will!!

It hasn't felt like a reading week. I have been so busy trying to rest up and doing work that I was unable to really enjoy it for myself. Yesterday and today were a pretty big success in that department but I just don't want to do ANYTHING when I get some time alone. And thats rare...

For example, lately a lot of my friends (or I guess at this point you should say acquaintances) have been getting seriously frustrated and annoyed with me. I understand that its hard for them to understand. Barely any other program on this earth is as challenging as Nursing school (Degree nursing, that is).

A typical day looks like these two:

Day 1                                                                        
9:30 am - 12:30 am - Class
12:30 - 13:30 - lunch of some sort. Sometimes
includes lunch with some friends or lunch on my own.
13:30-16:30 - I either do homework, catch up on errands or hit the gym.
16:30-18:00 - Gym time. Usually always a dedicated time because I religiously attend a class, enjoy a shake afterwards and get all showered up.
18:30 - Get home exhausted, and just want to crawl into bed. Sometimes I will do homework to prep for the following day (which is usually placement day). A lot of the times I just fall asleep early.

 Day 5
9:30 - 12:30 am - Class
12:30 - 13:30 - lunch which pretty well has to be eaten at the school.
13:30 - 15:30 - class.
15:30 - 17:00 - Gym time on my own generally speaking as there are no classes I attend however I do tend to keep up with my fitness 6 days of the week.
18:00 - Either dinner with my parents in the city or with friends.
20:00 - sleep
21:30 - work until the following morning at 7 AM. Alternating weekends I am able to sleep in a bit or go to bed early so I cam work for 8 AM.

And with a schedule like this when I have five minutes to myself, I want to spend it by myself. I made a posting on facebook the other day apologizing to my friends for not having any time for them and the next morning i got angry messages and phone calls where I got yelled at. People tell me "Take half an hour from studying and come see me". Okay we all know a half hour does not suffice for a visit. Its just a ploy to try and get me there. Not to mention when I do take that half hour out of my time, I feel guilty because I am not studying and am worried I will be falling behind. Now keep in mind I am actually somewhat ahead, which is a good thing but I would like to maintain that.

People just don't get it and its been frustrating me beyond belief lately. People are threatening to stop being friends with me, thinking I am avoiding them because I don't like them, etc. Its ridiculous. And I realize that these individuals are not real friends if thats what they are saying. But they don't see it that way and it doesn't stop them from harassing me and making me feel bad.

Ugh.

However I won't get to where I want and need to be by trying to please others. You and I both know damn well if the roles were reversed, they wouldn't be giving up what they need to do to get to where they want to be. People are just selfish in nature and I have a hard time explaining this to them without them getting angry. Lol. No good with people unless its clients apparently.

Also in other words, I am on my way to Nicaragua for a nursing experience in April! I am so excited! Its with our school, only 15 people were picked from a lengthy application process and I made the cut! Apparently something about being able to obtain a reference letter from a professor who they say "its like pulling teeth" to get a reference from her upped my chances. Plus I think I'm pretty charming and outgoing and that had an effect on things. Just keeping my fingers crossed my passport makes its way in soon. Like ASAP so that I can get those documents to the head of the trip.

Annnd I was told if I can secure at least three more months worth of RPN work I will be eligible to do travel nursing and make lots of money to travel!!

Need to buckle down and apply.. Dammmmnit.